Misunderstand

yeah.. finally everything is clear... but there is another problem comes out... they told the lecturer that they told me earlier and i din tell the lecturer.. OMG!!!! now how i gonna solve it.. well some ppl might suggest let it be.. but from my experience my instint told me that i shouldnt do it...

i don know wat to do... can some one tell me what to do... haiz.... i don wan ppl misunderstand me i mean the lecturer in this case... well i know it is not big deal i jus don wan ppl misunderstand me.. i don like ppl have bad impression on me... i don wan i don wan....

my experience in Chung Hua tell me misunderstandings will create a lot of problem eventhough it may seem ok at 1st time.... aduh... i don know y ar this ppl so lihai.... among the classmates they don know their plan de.... i thought u all knw le... i so wugu...... innocent ar...... i feel wanna explain everything to the lecturer but how bout those guy... i hope somebody will help me...

anyway... i forgive that fellow cos he don know the plan... and besides tat i learnt a bitter lesson too.... i feel down now... really down down down down.... broken heart....

LESSON LEARNT----- DON BE TOO SOFT-HEARTED (i don mean the forgiveness i mean don too soft hearted in helping ppl... FORGIVENESS is essential in our lives.... hahahaha.... )

HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Confuse, anger and defensive

here i m again... hmmm.. the anger bit ok...
i don wan appology but i wan an explanation... i wat u all bu suang bout me... i helped u dy... is this kinda of repay.. thanks for proclaminig i m not responsible in front of class.. really a good complement... i never been in such a unique way... should i smile and happy or burst into laughter... tell me...

well i think u have ur revenge rite.. now my turn to defense myself... well i don like ppl say bad bout me when i din do anything wrong.. i don like when u said i m not responsible because initially i wanted to tell lecturer and besides it is ur class de ppl say no need tell the lecturer.. i told u all before dy hapanything pened i really don wan to take care of it (seems not responsible but well it is not my suggestion to not to tell the lecturer ok.. do mind that).... and i m the person who is defensive if some ppl say bad thing about me...

hmmm.... i don intend to avenge... i don wan my reputation being stained... well u all may say i m bad cos i m selfish.... but i wan to ask u if u r in this situation wat u gonna do... it is not among friends dy.. it involved many ppl now..

i m confused don know wat to do... i wan defend myself.... i m not trying be harsh... i m not person who backsatb ppl or selfish... i don wanna always be good guy... i may look easy-going ppl but i do have feelings...

friends please tell me wat should i do...

edited dy... hehehe.. sorry ar jus found out is one bu suang me....

don simply blame me

halo brother and sister.... i don know wat to say.. i felt so moody now and thats not all I M ANGRY....

have u felt being blame for the fault that u din commit somemore in front of class and in front of the lecturer.... thats how i felt.. can i recalled the word... i don know whether i should or not...

i admit i do wrong and not responsible... it is for one simple reason i said that it is because i help u to lie and it is totally wrong to tell a lie to ur lecturer... mind ur word that i want to inform the lecturer and ur classmate told me "boon tung boon tung... class still continue... we will settle it..." ok fine i help u all... so my friend... don simply say a word like someone not responsible FOR NOT TELLING THE LECTURER... suang ho u said it... u bu shuang wat.. tell me.. i helped u and ur payback to me is to backstab me... wow wat a wonderful gift u award me... suang ho... well as u said earlier to me, u don wan me to tell the teacher and let e tell u he oso KNOW U ALL ARE COMING and I DID TELL HIM U ALL R COMING....

i m very frustrated... i help u but yet u persecute me... hmm nice one.... i oso try me best to help u already ok... i try my best to tell the teacher y u all will show up... u think is eay to help u all... aduh grateful ok.... i don know y u all don think properly y the lecturer leave early or before u say anything think first... so angry wif this ppl...

Editted... i found out tht only one bu suang me..... hehehe.... sorry ya...

How much u know bout us?

just read a forum bout catholic... as usual there is plenty of arguments among the Christian Roman Catholics and Christian Protestant... arguments make us know more bout each other but in some cases i don think this argument is very useful.. there are several reasons y i made such a statement...

well among all the forum that i read before, i think that the protestants does not know anything about the teachings of our Catholic church... i see tat there is many false statemnts given by them a lot question regarding wrong teachings of catholic they heard somewhere... most popular one will be y we worship Mary? y we worship statue? y we pray to saints or some say we worship them and etc... there are plenty of question they ask... if u don know it is fine we will answer.. but i don like some of the way that the non-catholic use to attack us.. they don know anything bout us and they made lot of false statement... they seems like they know everything... well for those want to know more bout us please do check and make some research... there is a search engine called Google.. and i wolud like to advice them to check on CATHOLIC website because u won find any Catholic teachings on Protestant website....

i hope those pastor who go to Catholic Mass and kacau kacau stops and repent.... there are plenty of video clips attacking Catholic teachings on Youtube.... well some of them are very radical and them know nothing bout Catholic... i dislikes their way as they don know anything and keep talking like they know everything.... at least u ask before u attack... there are plenty of Catholic Church in the world... all the church parish priest teach and believe the same teachings so u don worry to much having diff answer and u have to go only one church to ask bout ur question...

well i din say i don like Protestants but there are some of them who attack Catholic Church and they know nothing.. besides it is good for u to attack ur own brother and sister n christ.. Catholic Church is established by Jesus son of God himself so i hope the ppl who attacking our church with no knowledge bout our teachings stop what they r doing.. what they sholud do is to find the answer and ask those who know... u can go ask Scott Hann beacuse he used to be a pastor and now he is Catholic, so i belive he can clarify some of ur doubt...

Remember Jesus said he will be with us forever untill the time come.. so he won abandoned His church.. He will definitely won allowed Satan's influence in his own house... it is in the bible saying the church will not be fall due to satans..... and beisdes read some of the ancient or original manuscript because some of the words in english may have some slight difference in the original language..

Remember Jesus is the way, the truth and the life..... so if the protestant is right i will definitely accept it because Jesus is the truth... pray that there is more understanding among the Roman Catholic and Prortestant...

An apology

hmm... things went wrong... actually i wouldnt want to describe it anymore... this post is directly to the person it concerns... i would not say out the name because i don wan to create more problem... hmm to the one whom i hurt i really sorry really sorry... u may not see my post... i admit that i play too much and i dont care bout ur feeling or wat... i felt guilty and i felt i m too over... everyone is hurt for that game... haiz.... sorry

i feeling guilty and i started to think m i over... i should change myself back to the one who don't talk so much.... tired being talk so much... i wondering whether m i a good christian? haiz... sorry for creating many problem..

sorry.. i don ask for ur forgiveness but i really sorry for it... i do not give my apology to one particular person but for everyone who involve in that problem

Love story 2

Hahaha... here it comes love story 2... did u know the song love story... sure u know.. the composer actually read my blog before de so the composer get the "ilham"... hahaha.. last time i stopped at our love growing and germinating right (actually this ending is a fast ending cos tat time lazy post liao)... (i know the english is so weird....) in this post i will tell bit further... hahaha....


actually i felt so sad afetr we chat sometime.. y? not because i cant chase her la... is because i m form 5, and she was jus form 3 tat time.. hmm... so sad.. the time we will together will be short.. u know la many people say after form 5 all the couple will break especially junior and senior de couple (not all la)... so sad when this thought passed through my mind... haiz..... actually i tried to chase her la... but not that good the result.. as i chased, i met some failure ofcos and i felt wanna gave up.. but don know y she got some thing that attract me... God loves all of us... i met her at _____ (confidential)... finally we can at least meet each other every week.. this is also one of the crucial part for our relation.... if we did not met at that time we won together de.. thank you Lord... hahahaha... thanks for your gifts Lord...

then the time came where i had to become the so called WIRA... hmmm because of PLKN i cant message her everyday... so sad.. but few night before the PLKN started, i was so upset cos she said she only treated me as brother... so sad le. and since that time i gave up (later on chase again). every saturday after we got our valuable handphone back i would message her first... automatuc de... this was especially few weeks in the camp become the Wira...

then spm result out, baptised and the event that we attended also came to an end.. hmm so sad... haizzzzzzz....... i don really felt sad cos i gave up that time but also during that time i saw changes in her.. don know i perasan or what la, i think she fall in love in me... i took many time to make sure it and so i also fall in love with her (now deeper--- fall in true love de type)... and when me met, we just felt shy... (now she don wan admit she shy) hahaha... then i oso continue to chase her lo... buy flower buy chocolate buy car buy plane buy ship... and do many thing... invite her to go to romntic dinner but she cant go so it turn up to be me eating kueh tiao alone.. because that time in love so i told myself this is my last supper as single tomorrow i will "proposed". i still remember it was on saturday, after i back home with my mom, i took the phone press press press then i press send... hahaha.. content no need to say la.. use ur imagination... then she replied... hahaha... i m so happy le.... ( i use am because i still happy... hahaha don spam my blog eng pro) but we didnt start directly la... then our love grow and grow stronger...

hmm... then i left miri for study but still deep inside my heart and her heart we still love each other.... hahaha... okla next time continue if i got the mood... ei i din post this story for one year doesnt mean my love towards her not strong like last time instead my love grow stronger... hehehe...

feeling

weird feeling now.... don knwo what kind of feeling.. hmm....